day 1 of mp and tor already done and completed. NAISE. aim week 3 or 4 finish my entire project
oh wells
Alrighty guys. im back again. after almost a year i guess. this is a tough patch for me. a really tough one. decisions decisions. music or not. that sucks. really. im depressed. im about to lose everything. and theres nothing i can do. not really nothing. but the chances of me salvaging anything is pretty slim. first of all, my band. sucks. not members. playing wise. we went on a downwards spiral. and now it has almost hit the rock bottom. well. it was something i had helped to set up. this band. a band full of potential. its like, we’ve got a good drummer, a good vocalist and one hell of a guitarist. yes. thats us. im just a lousy player but its the strength of the rest of the band that makes it special. we started off lousy and we’ve managed to pull through stardust to become a finalist. yeaaa. a finalist standard band. full of confidence and full of pride. in fact. too much confidence and pride. thats the biggest downfall. its like. we never really got going. we just went down down down after the finals. i cant do anything. i tried. but i cant do anything to pull them back up. even a band talk seems useless. now its on the verge. and when i say on the verge, its really there. its on the verge of breaking up. yeaa. sad to say. its breaking up. the problem is. our hell of a guitarist is planning on making himself solo. and our good vocalist, is going acoustic with the hell of the guitarist. and our drummer can easily. or rather. just slot into any average band. well. for me. im nothing. really nothing. there are millions of bassist out there that are better than me. yes. millions. totally bullshit. im stuck. really stuck. my plans are all in the middle of nowhere now. my plans to take up guitar lessons. so that i can help the band and improve myself. my main aim is to help the band. and soo. without the band, i can only be helping myself. i dont know why. maby im not enough a musician to go solo in future. i dont want to. i want to play in a band. i dont wana just write alone and play alone. that sucks. i never wanted solo. maby im not independent enough. well. anyways. if the band breaks up. im a goner. im all alone. without a band. yea. i know i can find a band. but finding isnt as easy as i thought. like i said. millions of bassist are better than me. sooo. its down to. go solo or stop for good. i dont want both of them. and most of u will think. just go solo. if u dont u are not musician enough. fuck that. yea. im not a solo musician type enough. band yes. solo no. so thats tough. theres no one out there that can guide me i tink. advice from people are already problems i had already sort out with no avail. fuck. i really dont know wad to do. its stressful. its a small matter to many out there but its a big deal to me. talk about ure biggest dream. with a band full of potential. being torn up and toss around with u standing alone. well. great. i dont know. just fuck it. really. i need help here. badly.
